aaaaahrg its totally depressing when i am thinking about my life and in wich way it can go ..... hate this :?

a friend had a week ago a phase where he would do suizide, but for our luck i fortunately could dissuade from to him, but now some days later i become depressed

and the worst is that nobody is on-line with which I could talk

why must life be so hard i had enough bad things in my life for 5 lives ... i think this is enough ... pllz let it now be enough